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  • Evaluation November/December 2025

    There is no better date for a two month evaluation than the end of the year. Except when the months in question are in the middle of the year. Then it would be just the end of a month and not for a whole year. So, let’s see how these last two months were and what to make of it 😄

    I’m still content with the headings for my weekly reviews. They give me an opportunity to pause and reflect and if necessary to take action for any course correction needed. 🧭 Again, I will keep them for the next two months and have another evaluation at the end of February 2026.
    On a side note, while looking for a ship emoji depicting an old wooden ship with sails I could use in the paragraph above – why doesn’t this emoji exist? – I found an UFO emoji. And since I can’t think of anything warranting such an emoji right now but also feel an urge to use one, because it is an UFO emoji, I place it right here 🛸

    My current publishing routine with a weekly review on Sunday and creative content from Monday through Thursday works quite well for me. Therefore I also see no need for adjustments right now.

    For me writing is a way to deal with the stress that originates from my workplace and the fact that I simultaneously attend challenging study courses. It helps with processing the frustrations stemming from constant misgendering and other indignities I’m enduring at the office.
    On a positive note 🎵, writing allows me to explore new styles and concepts. It lets me unleash part of my creativity, that has been bottled up for a long time. Also, it helps improving my English 😁

    Thank you for joining me on this awesome journey 🚀🎆🪂

  • ear’s end haiku

    singing a shrill song
    lighting up the night
    burning money

    — firework

    tormenting pets
    costing me sleep
    and you a finger

    — firecracker

    bang
    getting a heart attack
    needing new eardrums

    — bystander

    in cooperation with a rhyming snail

  • endless loop

    transcription:

    reflections of the mind
    the mind wandering
    wandering through dark tunnels
    dark tunnels leading nowhere
    nowhere to be found
    to be found in this life
    in this life existing
    existing in dreams
    dreams forming a rainbow
    a rainbow with a pot of gold
    a pot of gold at the end
    at the end to be able to see
    to see reflections
    reflections of the mind
    …

    With thanks to a rhyming snail for help with the infinity loop.

  • Review week 52/2025

    Grateful

    • Over the holidays I got time for a longer, much needed resting period.

    Failure

    • Although knowing I needed the rest I still beat myself up for it because I’ve made nearly no progress with my study program assignments.

    Take Away/Doing Next

    • Keeping up relaxation routines while also trying to accept that I still need more time to rest.
    • Combining the last day of the year with the November/December 2025 evaluation. Also at the beginning of 2026 publishing a little review and evaluation of 2025 together with an outlook for 2026.

  • family gathering haiku

    coming together
    talking, laughing, having a good time
    being present

    — ideally

    sitting in the corner
    watching everyone enjoying themselves
    feeling overwhelmed

    — reality

  • holiday tree

                *
               / \
              / o \
             /_~ ~_\
            O / # \ O
             /~ ~ ~\
            / o | o \
           /_~ ~ ~ ~_\
          # /o  O  o\ #
           /~ ~ ~ ~ ~\
          /#  # | #  #\
         /~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~\
        /_o__o_ o _o__o_\
       O    O |   | O    O
              |___|

  • because it is Christmas

    we must buy presents
    because it is Christmas
    we must come together
    because it is Christmas
    we must keep smiling
    because it is Christmas
    we must be pleasant company
    because it is Christmas
    we must keep up the facade
    because it is Christmas
    we must avoid conflict
    because it is Christmas
    we must be relaxed and perfectly fine
    because it is fucking Christmas

  • distracted definition

    footnote distraction
    … a distraction at the end of a page like a comment or an afterthought

    tiny distraction
    … a distraction that comes and goes but has no real impact

    small distraction
    … a distraction that is modest but keeps coming with its demands

    medium distraction
    … a distraction that is well done

    large distraction
    … a distraction that is worthy to be considered serious

    huge distraction
    … a distraction that is basking in its magnificence

    giant distraction
    … a distraction that in its vastness defies every definition

    cosmic distraction
    … a distraction that in its extent downgrades everything else to a footnote distraction

  • Review week 51/2025

    Grateful

    • I’m glad to have people in my life I can ask for advice and/or help.

    Failure

    • My responsibilities together with the upcoming deadlines are putting massive pressure on my shoulders.

    Take Away/Doing Next

    • Working steadily on my study assignments over the holidays while also taking some time off.

  • hungry dragon

    One little dragon with

    two heads eating

    three cakes,

    four cheesecakes,

    five tarts,

    six fairy cakes/cupcakes,

    seven brownies,

    eight doughnuts and

    nine cookies, sitting before

    ten empty plates.