we must buy presents
because it is Christmas
we must come together
because it is Christmas
we must keep smiling
because it is Christmas
we must be pleasant company
because it is Christmas
we must keep up the facade
because it is Christmas
we must avoid conflict
because it is Christmas
we must be relaxed and perfectly fine
because it is fucking Christmas
In the heat of the night
sweat on my brow
feeling my might
the moment is now
Whisper sweet nothings
in my lovers left ear
I hear a low huffing
the moment is near!
The stars were so right
but we had no such luck
in the heat of the night
it was too hot to fuck
unrelenting force
deep seated urge
need to devour
hunger for more
never staying satisfied
always searching
to feel the high again
only to begin anew
sometimes
I feel lost
and lonely
like I'm all alone
out there
sometimes
I feel the joy
of the whole world
resonating
within me
sometimes
I feel the burden
of being me
among
others
sometimes
I don't care
what others
think or say
about me
sometimes
I feel to much
and I do care
what others
do and say
to me
sometimes
the world is
a cruel place
to live in
sometimes
I want peace
and quiet
without
fighting
sometimes
I want
belonging
without
outing
sometimes
I wish
sometimes
could be
every time
sometimes
maybe
all of us
could be
a little bit
more inclusive
for all of us
at the faintest sound
ready to freeze
at the tiniest glimpse
ready to run
at the slightest touch
ready to fight
every fiber in the body
prepared for survival
ready all the time
prepared for every occasion
still building up the tautness
still tightening more and more
never feeling any of the tension
never sensing the strain
until the tiny cracks appear
and the muscles tear apart
a burning sensation
a lack of strength
everything tumbling down
everything breaking apart
no energy left
just endless rest
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