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Tag: pressure

  • recharging haiku dilemma

    sleeping
    taking a long needed rest
    regenerating

    — regeneration

    annoying
    half of the day gone by
    nothing accomplished

    — frustration

  • we were here

    we were dreamers
    we could do anything
    we were the center of the world
    we grew up
    we had to pay bills
    we took up responsibilities
    we lost our dreams
    we left behind our freedom
    we grew tired
    we worked
    we consumed
    we died

  • new year’s resolution

    nearly everyone makes them
    most remember them
    barely anyone keeps them
    why do we make them?
    when they are hardly remembered
    and rarely kept?
    are they an illusion?
    a trick of the brain
    to make us feel better?
    the best resolutions are
    those not made because
    these are the only ones kept

  • because it is Christmas

    we must buy presents
    because it is Christmas
    we must come together
    because it is Christmas
    we must keep smiling
    because it is Christmas
    we must be pleasant company
    because it is Christmas
    we must keep up the facade
    because it is Christmas
    we must avoid conflict
    because it is Christmas
    we must be relaxed and perfectly fine
    because it is fucking Christmas

  • the bane of every sleep

    urging to get up
    to find the place
    where everything goes
    no consideration
    for the implications
    on the sleeper's needs
    deaf to any bargaining
    immune to most reasoning
    resistant to all opposing forces
    master of the cognitive
    usurper of the higher functions
    in the end gaining the upper hand

  • add title here

    the blank mind
    does not know what to write
    everything sounds hollow and empty
    the blank page
    does dare to be written upon
    menacing on the screen
    the deadline
    does remind of the delivery
    coming nearer with every passing day

  • noisy office

    me sitting at the computer
    me trying to concentrate
    me in a room with people constantly talking
    me at another's desk
    me trying to explain something
    me surrounded by ongoing discussions
    me reading my e-mails
    me trying to get things done
    me in an environment of loud noises
    me finally at home
    me trying not to collapse
    me exhausted from being at the office

  • silencio Bruno

    hello, it’s me, your inner voice

    I’m here to remind you, that you can’t do that

    you’re not qualified enough

    you’re lacking ambition

    you haven’t what it takes to do that

    nobody will give a shit

    it won’t work

    don’t bother even trying

    it is futile, so why even start?

    come on, we both know you can’t do that

    what, if something went wrong?

    you know what? it is pointless

    SHUT THE HELL UP!

    …

  • being aroace

    me not wanting to have kids
    me not feeling attraction
    me not understanding what all the fuss is about
    me failing to express myself
    why do I have to reproduce?
    why do I need to fall in love?
    why do I want to exchange bodily fluids?
    me failing to understand expectations
    me finding words
    me finding support
    me finding resources
    me finally able to talk
    me knowing I don't need to do anything
    me knowing there are others like me
    me knowing that I can contribute
    me feeling proud to be asexual

  • sometimes

    sometimes
    I feel lost
    and lonely
    like I'm all alone
    out there
    sometimes
    I feel the joy
    of the whole world
    resonating
    within me
    sometimes
    I feel the burden
    of being me
    among
    others
    sometimes
    I don't care
    what others
    think or say
    about me
    sometimes
    I feel to much
    and I do care
    what others
    do and say
    to me
    sometimes
    the world is
    a cruel place
    to live in
    sometimes
    I want peace
    and quiet
    without
    fighting
    sometimes
    I want
    belonging
    without
    outing
    sometimes
    I wish
    sometimes
    could be
    every time
    sometimes
    maybe
    all of us
    could be
    a little bit
    more inclusive

    for all of us