counting the minutes
waiting for the bus
counting the pages
reading during transfer
counting the steps
taking the stairs
more reading
more stairs
more transfers
when did I lose count?
around 500?
around 1000?
obviously I don't care any more
obviously I know the way by heart now
obviously I am on autopilot
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[ ]
... ... ... _(&)_>>
[ ]
... ... ... ._(%)_>>
[ ]
... ... ..._(§)_>>
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What a race! % has a clear lead, but & and § are close behind. # trails more than half a length behind. Can they catch up? Can & challenge %’s lead? Is the winner set? Oh, the excitement!
in cooperation with a rhyming snail
a prickling sensation
like tiny insects
crawling through the veins
stretching legs
flapping wings
whipping the tail
shaking of the tension
making the insects go away
feeling the need to rest
lying down
curling up
taking a nap
at the faintest sound
ready to freeze
at the tiniest glimpse
ready to run
at the slightest touch
ready to fight
every fiber in the body
prepared for survival
ready all the time
prepared for every occasion
still building up the tautness
still tightening more and more
never feeling any of the tension
never sensing the strain
until the tiny cracks appear
and the muscles tear apart
a burning sensation
a lack of strength
everything tumbling down
everything breaking apart
no energy left
just endless rest
burning hot
driving tears into my eyes
enjoying dinner
— elbow pasta with arrabbiata sauce
meaty sauce
rich in tomatoes
freshly cooked
— fusilli pasta with bolognese sauce
Here I am, nearly two months after starting my blog I finished the two PACTs I made with myself. This means it’s evaluation time :)
If you want to find out what these two PACTs were about and what the hell is a PACT anyhow check out my first post from 05.07.2025.
First, I really enjoyed the creative writing, to experiment with different contents, visualisations, topics and so on. So for now I will keep this aspect and build on it. Expanding my repertoire, trying concepts I haven’t attempted yet. Maybe write another short story. Definitely doing more ASCII art. There are some ideas I haven’t explored yet :) Continue to vent my frustrations in a creative and occasionally fun way. Share my insights every now and then how life feels for me and how I experience everyday situations.
Regardless of my study course, which starts again today, I plan to uphold the one post per day schedule for the near future. Potential necessary adjustments in the update schedule will be announced beforehand.
Second, I’m going to adjust the weekly reviews. I’m going to change the headings from “Plus – Minus – Next” to “Grateful – Failure – Take Away”. I’ll try this new concept for the next two months till the end of October 2025 and then evaluate it again.
With the old headings I sometimes got the feeling that I’m writing entries on a to do list. With the new headings I want to try the concepts of gratefulness and analysing failures and/or disappointments. Expressing gratitude is a way to improve mental health and by analysing our failures we get insights to expand and grow. Thus I’m trying out two concepts I came in contact with in the past but never gave them a shot for more than one or two days and especially not in a structured and easy to maintain way.
On the whole I’m really satisfied with the outcomes of my first tiny experiment and I will definitely continue in this spirit. I also have plans to expand the content of the blog beyond creative writing. To give you a hint, my plans involve pictures of the physical creative projects I’m doing. So this might result in yet another tiny experiment ;)
I hope you continue to enjoy your stay at my place and see you soon :)
EXT.
Optimus Prime and Megatron stand opposed.
Optimus Prime
Hold! Megatron, you have fought well but stand on the cusp of defeat. Stand down so we may end this day without slaughter.
Megatron
Fool! You think me defeated? You’ve only shown me you are strong enough that I must at last use my ultimate weapon.
Optimus Prime
What?! It cannot be! Do you speak of …?
Megatron
Yes! I have here the AllSpark! Victory is lost to you. You have no hope of defeating me now.
Optimus Prime
How could this be? Is that the end of the Autobots?
Megatron
Hahahahahahaha … huh? What is there to grin about?
Optimus Prime
There is one thing you haven’t thought about. There is a way to trump the AllSpark.
Megatron
What… you cannot mean?
Optimus Prime
Yes! I have here the Matrix of Leadership! The only thing in the universe that can withstand the AllSpark. Bow to your fate.
Megatron
But how … no matter. You may have the Matrix of Leadership but I can always summon a greater power. Behold! The Pillars which I’ll use to summon Unicron. You have no chance with your puny Matrix of Leadership.
Optimus Prime
It can’t be! I am not strong enough to overcome Unicron. But wait! If I use my Transformium, I may be able to create a weapon more powerful than Unicron.
Megatron
How do you have access to Transformium? It is the rarest element in the universe. As it happens though I have a Seed, with which to produce even more Transformium. Which will overpower anything you can create.
Both opponents use their Transformium to fashion new weapons.
Megatron
You are doomed, Optimus! For I wield Merlin’s staff with which I will transfer the core of this sorry planet to another dead planet for some reason.
Optimus Prime
Your wickedness knows no bounds, Megatron. But seeing your evil I have no choice to try and stop you with this Excalibur!
Megatron
But how did you know the only weakness …?
Optimus Prime
Kame-hame …
in cooperation with a rhyming snail
Wikipedia: Transformers (film series) and Dragon Ball (manga)
too bright
too dim
too loud
too noisy
too pungent
too fragrant
too bland
too savory
too hot
too cold
too tight
too loose
too crowded
too cramped
too much sensory input
every day
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