Author: Si’ar Siyu

  • processed by capitalism

    shattered
    broken in pieces
    lying around
    pieces
    of an identity
    long lost
    expectations
    for this life
    taken away
    consumed
    by the hunger
    for growth
    living
    only to work
    paying bills
  • snowing haiku

    falling silently
    covering everything in a white blanket
    heralding more to come

    — first snow of the year

    untouched landscape
    glistening in the sun
    beckoning to play

    — snowy landscape

  • Review week 2/2026

    Grateful

    • This week there were only two days where I needed to go to the office.

    Failure

    • Both days at the office left me utterly exhausted, resulting in a lot of sleep the following day.

    Take Away/Doing Next

    • Handing over my remaining tasks and making everything ready for my departure at the end of the month.
  • recharging haiku dilemma

    sleeping
    taking a long needed rest
    regenerating

    — regeneration

    annoying
    half of the day gone by
    nothing accomplished

    — frustration

  • we were here

    we were dreamers
    we could do anything
    we were the center of the world
    we grew up
    we had to pay bills
    we took up responsibilities
    we lost our dreams
    we left behind our freedom
    we grew tired
    we worked
    we consumed
    we died
  • new year’s resolution

    nearly everyone makes them
    most remember them
    barely anyone keeps them
    why do we make them?
    when they are hardly remembered
    and rarely kept?
    are they an illusion?
    a trick of the brain
    to make us feel better?
    the best resolutions are
    those not made because
    these are the only ones kept
  • meditation

    emptiness

    ...

    nothing

    ...
    ...

    inside

    ...
    ...
    ...

    silence

  • Review week 1/2026

    Grateful

    • Since the last couple of days were a mix of holidays and weekend I got a lot of rest.

    Failure

    • Again needed a lot of sleep due to exhaustion. Because of that I didn’t make nearly as much progress with my study assignments as I had planed.

    Take Away/Doing Next

    • Coming to terms with needing adequate rest due to my exhaustion, which prevents me from doing many things. Then pouring my thoughts on this into creative writing and posting it on the blog.
  • Review/Evaluation 2025

    A happy new year, assuming you live in a part of the world using the Gregorian calendar! 🎉 In either case a happy day to you! And since I always like learning about other cultures I would be delighted to learn when and how your country celebrates the new year 😀

    Now to the 2025 review. I started this blog in July 2025 as part of a two month PACT to try out this concept. I had no expectations and no specific goals. At that time I also didn’t exactly know what I was going to write about 😅
    Half a year later, there are over 150 published posts. Most of them in the category “poetry” (85) followed by “weekly review” (26) and “wordplay” (14). The currently top three most frequent used tags are “life” (30), “haiku” (24) and “observation” (17). With over 260 likes, resulting in a big hearty THANK YOU! 🥰
    Never even in my wildest dreams did I imagine such an amazing outcome, when I started this blog. You really blew my mind here 🤯 🥳

    As for the evaluation, not only does creative writing help me vent frustration, it also gives me an opportunity to play around with words resulting in the occasional fun and nonsensical post. Additionally, the blog gives my non-digital creative works a platform for a wider audience, like my beadworks or pictures. Although at the time of this writing there is just one picture 🤔

    Proceeding to a quick outlook for the year 2026. I don’t intend to write a “to-do” or “what to expect” list. Instead I write a list of things interesting to explore, which might or might not happen over the course of the next year. And to make this even more interesting, I’m thinking about comparing this list with what actually happened in the review for 2026.
    So, here is what intrigues me to explore over the next 12 months, in no particular order:

    • writing short stories and thus expanding my repertoire
    • sharing more non-digital creative works
    • learning how to use Inkscape
    • creating a logo for my website
    • expanding the website beyond a blog
    • finishing my study program
    • learning how to use Krita
    • creating digital artwork
    • reading on average at least one book per month
    • finishing at least one of my sewing projects
    • crocheting and showing some amigurumi
    • learning to code in Python
    • learning wood burning while finishing another project that incorporates pyrographic elements
    • in general having fun producing creative works, either digital or non-digital
    • making PACTs when trying out new things

    In summary, a lot happened over the last 6 months and I expect there is more yet to come for this year 😁
    Thank you for being with me on this wonderful, creative journey 🥰 and I hope you continue to enjoy your visits in 2026.

  • Evaluation November/December 2025

    There is no better date for a two month evaluation than the end of the year. Except when the months in question are in the middle of the year. Then it would be just the end of a month and not for a whole year. So, let’s see how these last two months were and what to make of it 😄

    I’m still content with the headings for my weekly reviews. They give me an opportunity to pause and reflect and if necessary to take action for any course correction needed. 🧭 Again, I will keep them for the next two months and have another evaluation at the end of February 2026.
    On a side note, while looking for a ship emoji depicting an old wooden ship with sails I could use in the paragraph above – why doesn’t this emoji exist? – I found an UFO emoji. And since I can’t think of anything warranting such an emoji right now but also feel an urge to use one, because it is an UFO emoji, I place it right here 🛸

    My current publishing routine with a weekly review on Sunday and creative content from Monday through Thursday works quite well for me. Therefore I also see no need for adjustments right now.

    For me writing is a way to deal with the stress that originates from my workplace and the fact that I simultaneously attend challenging study courses. It helps with processing the frustrations stemming from constant misgendering and other indignities I’m enduring at the office.
    On a positive note 🎵, writing allows me to explore new styles and concepts. It lets me unleash part of my creativity, that has been bottled up for a long time. Also, it helps improving my English 😁

    Thank you for joining me on this awesome journey 🚀🎆🪂